Phone down......water down....Oh not ...!!!

My phone is down today...
what come to my mind..
is i scare dear u cant find u..
i shut down my phone and restart my phone many time
but still cant open it...
the phone down is not a big problem...
but the main problem is i cant contact dear u...
this few day, my house not water supply..
have to go to friend house bath and store some water
life without water really hard to survive...
hope can repair phone and water supply...

Christmas back or not???

for the coming Christmas.
got almost 5 day rest...
want to go back kk ma
i miss u ...
but the thing i worry is
if i go back,
i know i will disturb ur study...
and make u cant concentrate the study..
i can understand..
so i still thinking...
mybe i should not think too much....
follow the old plan..see u at the next year is better...
let dear u concentrate ur study first...
and get a good result...jia you dear, support u

holiday

one week holiday in hometown...
although is short but
it is enough for me...
because i can see my family...
and eat hometown food...
and more important is rest before the next posting ...
now is in surgery posting..need to study back the anatomy part
which i dislike the most one...
anyways, will add oil to score a this time...

Web cam

my holiday for one week begin le...
i really hope to come to kk,
and see dear u
anyways since i stay at sandakan,
i will study as much as possible,
i am happy that i can web cam with dear.
see dear studying,
see dear drink milo,
see dear smile.
haha...
dear u smile will make me smile...
hope to web cam more with u
today dear finish test, sure relax now...
but i know u still have many report need to do.
jia you ya...
me always support u de

sick and dead

this few day sick le,fever and joint pain....very suffering.
hate to sick. sick make me cant do anything and concentrate also.
anyways there is thing i want to share with dear you.
The most i interesting part for this few day is
i do cpr to a female patient
the female patient is already died when she reach hospital
they just give me a try. although finally still cant save her.
died is so easy.
just a few second
died is always follow with saddness.
i saw the family of the pateint cry for her.
they all cry because one of their family member left them
at that moment, i think about dear you.
and think about life.
life is worth for me when i have you.
just after that moment,
i feel everything is not important
except family and love.
sometime it is ourself make the problem compicated.
it is easy actually, just our thinking make us go into a deep hole
the deep hole is so dark and deep and sometime there is evil inside
and making a lot of negative thought.
if everything keeps a positive mind
and treat the love with full heart and respect plus honesty
i think it is the simplest way to communicate

Care

dear, i dun know how to tell you all my feeling,
but i am sure i care about u,
the more i care u , the more i love u,
the more i scare i lost u,
i am sad when u say i not care u and u say i do not like u
i sad until cry,
most of the time, i try to be mature,
even there is things i dislike, i try to understand and tolerate it,
i told myself i must think from ur site,
and understand u,
but it is not easy to do.
when u say u busy, i not sms u, and wait u sms me,
when u have quiz, i know u will study hard, i dun know if i sms u, will disturb u
u know, i am really scare i will give u stress...

what i actually hope is to chat with u more, communicate...
if i not tell ur my felling, i think i will never know u will though i not care u,
u also keep all thing in ur heart.
i guess this is our problem...


early morning wake up, i check my phone to see whether i have any sms from u
when i receive u sms, i will reply as fast as possible. wait u next sms.
because i know if i late reply, u will though i am busy or sleep le.
sometime
sometime, i dun even know what u do whole day,
i guess u also dun know what i am doing, if u ask me, i sure will tell u.
i actually hope to know what u do everyday,
got meet any special thing, nice people, how is ur day.


anyways, hope we can solve togehter...
and make u feel i care about u